Start over and this time actually read it out loud
Read everything out loud to make it more real
Because writing it down is one thing that helps
But saying it out loud gives the words a feel
6.17.19
‘Move past it’ is a choice I think
A daily conversation to have with
Oneself, and on bad days, out loud
Move past the daily little triggers
And reminders of past mistakes
Try to notice them less because
It isn’t your fault if it happens again
You’ll just have to let her go
But that hurt? That hurt would
Take hourly conversations with
Yourself in order to move past it
6.14.19
It might be dumb but I’ll try it
A big lie but today I’ll buy it
Conversing about big risks
Versus big rewards if
She stays and stays true
So I’ll watch the time go by
And wait an hour for you on
a June summer afternoon
Everything is a system, work it to your advantage
6.12.19
You lied, again, and
Somehow swearing you
Didn’t remember putting
Your lips to his, real sin
Now I’m the one torn
Do I stay in this room
Knowing full well you
May never be true
Do I say goodbye
Accept that I’ll never
Love you again and
Surely end alone
6.11.19
Some days you do everything right
Yet you can’t get traction
Whether it’s a lease for a house
Or a friend in a hospital
You just struggle to keep afloat
And hope you’re doing enough
When the reigns seem
To be just out of reach
And you wonder if
There’s any way to make it work
Or if it’ll be real at all